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This is going to sound really melodramatic, but most days I can't figure out why I survived that pulmonary embolism.  I just feel like there hasn't been a point to my life since then and nothing particularly good has come out of it.  Nothing has really made sense since before that time.  I feel like my life would have been such a good story if it had ended there, but now it's dragging on.  Like a tv show that shouldn't have been renewed for another season.