oh, man, that's too bad. This economy makes it so difficult to find a job... It sucks that your dream of moving to NYC let you down- I think that is one of the hardest parts of being a human; you have all these hopes and you build them up for so long just thinking about how perfect they will be- then if they don't pan out it hurts even more than if it had just been some spontaneous decision. If it's a spontaneous thing you can just kind of shrug your shoulders and go "meh, it was wort a shot", but it really feels like a betrayal if you've been looking forward to it for a long time. I get into these weird moods when I've been looking forward to something for a while, where I just kinda get more and more apathetic about it when it gets really close to happening. it's like a defense mechanism or something.

Anyway, if you decide that you are going for a new goal, or if you decide to stick it out there- i wish you luck.