Sur mon pied je veux graver que nos rires ont berné la mort et le temps

 Thanks for the feedback on the tattoo entry, guys.  I drew what I think I want on my foot last night with a pen, then redrew it in the morning.  I'm gonna keep that up and think a lot about it until... payday.  The problem is, I don't have much time to make the decision.

(How come I always have to make big life-altering decisions in a small amount of time?)

Here's what I'm thinking of (except not crooked or smudged):



The Good:
1. It's small and can be seen but can easily be covered up, it isn't anything shocking or offensive, and apparently it's on a part of my foot that will hurt slightly less than the top.
2. Even if someday I somehow don't love MOR anymore (why would I not?  It might someday recede and become a secondary obsession but I don't think I could stop loving it, especially since it changed my life and all that) I can't imagine being like "Ew, my foot says 'live life to the fullest' in French, ugh so tacky, man I was a dumb kid." 
3.  I like the idea of it being on my foot because (this is gonna sound cheesy) it's a reminder to go.  Live life to the fullest and do it now, just keep walking and don't give up.  These feet tromped all over France somehow, these feet froze outside the PDS stagedoor night after night, I went all over the place alone because I didn't want to miss any chances.  When I'm old and gray and looking down at my swollen, wrinkly, misshapen old-lady foot I think I'll see that blob of indiscernible ink-smudge and smile when I remember that I can do anything.  S'il faut mouuuuuriiiiir... 
4. I feel so changed after this past year, and I wish I had a way to express that.  Here's one, and not only is it something my judgmental past self would never have ever even considered, but it's something that will always force me to remember how good life can be if I take chances.

The Bad:
1. I guess that's a part of my foot that will rub shoes sometimes (not the flats I have now, I checked) so I have to keep that in mind.

If you look at this picture and think "Aw LAWD that girl is making a MISTAKE" please please please tell me why.  I can't think of any real reason not to have this done.

Right now the plan is to keep redrawing it and see if my emotions change, but like I said, I don't have much time before I go back.  I'm thinking I'll give myself at least until next payday, maybe longer, to mull it over.

Alrighty then

 Just read an article called "reasons to get a tattoo" and it listed memories, tributes, and passions.  Check, check, and check.

Welp, that's it.  Unless I get sick of looking at the words written on my foot during the upcoming week, it's gonna get permanent.  As Yvonne pointed out on my last entry, this is what "vivre à en crever" is all about.  It's better to regret something you did do than wonder about something you didn't.  The bad news is I won't be good to go swimming for basically the rest of my time in the US.  The good news is Kelley is stoked about this idea and really ready to drive me to the place.  I googled a bit and kept coming up with the name of a place in Raleigh, and when I asked a friend who grew up here where she wants to get her tattoo done she named the same place.  Apparently it has an amazing reputation.

In France news, I CANNOT GET THE ATLANTA CONSULATE WEBSITE TO WORK to schedule my appointment.  That's basically the only step I have left besides a followup at the doctor on Saturday for my medical form.  I'm SO. CLOSE.  I called them and the phone said to email them so I did that earlier today and now I'm waiting.  I check the site every once in a while, but it WILL NOT WORK.  I hope this is a site malfunction and not a sign that all the appointments are booked for the rest of the summer somehow.  I guess there's no way I can go to a different consulate?  Or make them HURRY UP the visa process?  Ffffff.

I WANT TO BUY A PANINI SPÉCIALE GENIA FROM THE CRÊPE LADY IN THE QUARTIER LATIN FOR TWO EUROS AND FIFTY CENTIMES AND I WANT TO DO THAT ASAP

I WANT TO HEAR THE DING OF MY NAVIGO PASS WORKING

I WANT TO SEE CREEPY DUDES SELLING EIFFEL TOWER KEYCHAINS